The Journey Begins with Deciding to Begin the Journey
The journey is also a circle that gets larger and more complex as you traverse it. Is it a heroes journey ,a personal journey or a world journey . I believe everything has meaning that on this we all have a part to play. We all have significance.
Every Morning for the past 4 years I have woken up and picked up a pen and paper and wrote. I wrote to try and make sense of the world. I wrote because I was trying to design a life that felt calm an ordered. I wrote because I believe that the stories we tell ourselves create our reality. I was trying to create my own reality by writing a story. The same story over and over. A peaceful life that involves growing your own food , finding a way to create something maybe open an online business selling vintage or antiques. I searched and searched . I searched you tube videos , I searched books there had to be the perfect life out there that I could relate to that would give me the information I wanted. The secret or a set series of steps or a formula.
When I was a child and had a question , my father who was a university professor, would say go look it up in the encyclopedia which at the time was the Encyclopedia Britannica. I could get all the information I needed from a book. The small blurb available would give the necessary answer to the question. I always came away feeling like something was missing a vital piece of information or just a feeling it lacked something. As I grew up I always started with a book for the answers. I would go to the library and search for answers. In University I would write essays based on the information found in reputable books forming my essays to answer questions I really did not care about. The most fun I had was with my friends a very hodgepodge group that came from all walks of life. As we drank the bad coffee available and played euchre or got drunk on cheap beer trying to find our way through a world that was changing rapidly. I still had more questions I had to research .
I got married as I was supposed to do and proceeded to rapidly have 4 children and the search continued for answers to questions whether it was how to be a good housewife or how to be a good parent. All the while employing the skills along the way of research to find answers. As someone recently said to me, as I asked the question Why for the probably the 10 th time , answer the darn question yourself .
Over the last 4 years after a serious wakeup call from the moment I picked up a pen and paper and began to try and make sense of it all I began to read and write and think and write some more. I could lose myself for hours at a time attempting to answer on paper the questions of what do I want to to what do I need to do .
This blog is going to be my creation of the ideas I have and the questions big and small. Of sometimes my journey down a rabbit hole or whatever comes up in the morning.
Thankyou I hope that it is something somebody needed to read but these ideas are definitely things I need to say.